Wendy Wonka

Low battery

2012-01-29T20:45:00.001+08:00

I'm so tired that I can fall asleep on this couch right now. Time to sleep early tonight. I've got a full week of work ahead of me man zzz. I just made new specs!! Haiz a good $400 down the drain. But I guess it will last me 4-5 years, so it's ok la. I can't wear contacts, so no choice! I'm going to rimless specs so it will appear less conspicuous. Very light too, those specs! Looking forward to getting them and I can wear them for my Korea trip!! Hee. My current specs has served me since 2007, time to become spare tyre! Don't really like them, so heavy, keep sliding down my super flat nose.. So for this year's bonus, I spent it on the fit flops, a crystal hand phone charm, reunion dinner with my mum, my mum extra allowance, good dinner with hubby and specs! I also saved aside a portion already! And I'm going to start walking tml. Zzz so fat le.

I need direction!

2012-01-25T16:44:00.001+08:00

Look at those motivational speakers.. I really wonder how they remain so fired up.
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I lose focus like, once every 2-3 months. I'm feeling that way now. Sick of whatever I am doing, sick of my responsibilities, sick of certain people. Feel like just going for a holiday, be selfish for a while and settle those internal issues once for all. U know, be alone, and really really be serious with myself for a while. Can't wait for 10Feb where I'm going Korea.
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I do have an inkling of what i wanna achieve moving forward. I hope to stay home more with my kid i.e. work part-time or work from home. Not sure if that's my "calling", but I will definitely love to do that. I am already missing her so much at work now. She's growing up really fast and I want to be part of her growing up process as much as I can. Gonna set some goals to work towards that!

back to work on cny day 3... isn't a nice feeling.

2012-01-25T13:58:00.000+08:00

1st half of the day has somehow passed by in a kinda grueling manner. Hubby's still on leave and my girl is still at home, back to school only tomorrow. My mum, hubby and my girl are all at Thomson Plaza now having lunch and doing some marketing at NTUC. I feel left out...
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Poh Yi's coming over my place tonight for steamboat. Sad that no other relatives are coming, I badly miss the past years where all would gather together in some aunt's place and have fun together playing cards. Ever since my mum and my aunt quarreled a few years ago, everything has changed. But last night Poh Yi got everyone to her house though, but I couldnt make it (only my mum went) and I missed out whatever fun there was. Major SIGH. So now i gotta wait another year before the next gathering comes along.
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Sian la.

CNY Eve's Eve

2012-01-21T12:21:00.000+08:00

and also our wedding anniversary. Not doing anything special actually. Hubby just got back from CNY marketing with his mum, now napping on the recliner while our girl is engrossed with Aladdin movie. And me? Just put in a mushroom cheesy pizza in the oven..waiting for it to be ready.
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Later at 2plus hubby's going to run an errand for his mum again and then we are going for our last church service at Nexus auditorium at 5pm. After service, coming back home so we can all go for dinner somewhere. Maybe hubby and i can go for drinks after this errand-ful day!

While waiting..

2012-01-16T21:06:00.001+08:00

For my girl to finish her scoot session..
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It's sometimes saddening to know that the human race is just earning money to spend, and the more they earn, the more things they realize they wanna spend on. And in the end, they unknowingly get bounded by this idiotic cycle. It's just quite.. Stupid.
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I'm not talking about other people or trying to bad mouth other people. Some people can Be incredibly Sensitive U know. I'm actually referring to my family. Not that we are bounded by this spending habit, but I think I myself and hubby ought to spend lesser if I wanna stop working full time in 5 years.
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It's not difficult actually. Just consume lesser! That's one way. Eat lesser. Stop buying clothes/ shoes/ bags. I ought to come up w a plan and start being disciplined about it.

ahchoo

2012-01-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

i am sniffing and sneezing away..argh. i hope it's just sinus and will go away by end of today.
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It's Friday, been a super long busy week. hordes of work. Looking forward to 6pm.. 2 more hours :(
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don't feel like working leh! haiz. I wanna go off now can...

current mood - lazy

2012-01-10T16:15:00.001+08:00

Yay I've managed to clean the study room's wardrobes yesterday evening! *triumphant**
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Tonight - study room's console drawers... haha. Taking 1 baby step per day is really better than trying to be over-ambitious! As I cleaned the wardrobes last night, I was browsing through the photographs together with my girl, it was so funny to see her looking at my photos when I was her age! Tonight she has requested to play Wii while I clean the drawers though :)
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Just met Belle and Kelvin for lunch earlier at Seoulria, our current infatuation. Belle is so addicted to it can! The service there is really good lar, I don't mind going there everyday actually.. but spend $10 for lunch daily is abit.. extravagant haha.
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So sian, having my period since yesterday. Next month at this time, I'll be in Korea having my period!!! Major sian-ness lol.

2012-01-09T15:34:00.001+08:00

I just started using the Jim Thompson bag that my shepherd gave me during Christmas. It's such a perfect size and I love it!

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I've been eating and eating! :( all the carbs during weekends!! Oh no!! I think I shuld start doing some brisk walking soon (like I have time to..haven even completed my spring cleaning).. tonight i gotta finish cleaning the toy/study room no matter what!!

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and i still have the store room, one of the kitchen cabinets, and the tv console drawers.. *_* Ok gotta complete it by this Thursday! Coz I'll be busy this coming weekend preparing for my LG the following Wednesday!

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I have so many things not completed yet...Haven't done report for Pastor Jeff... Haven reccee-ed Textile Centre area for the restaurants' opening hours...Haven decided if i wanna start the KTV club...

New year, new diet XD

2012-01-03T13:46:00.001+08:00

To make my diet easier, i have decided to just have instant cereal (133 calories) every weekday for lunch, from now on.
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Breakfast - Kopi-O with 2 spoonfuls Anlene low-fat powder
Lunch - Instant Cereal & Small cup of coffee
Dinner - Meat, Veg, Soup (no rice)
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As for weekends... really very tough not to eat.. I will refrain from eating for these 3 weeks, before CNY. I really need to lose some weight for buffer during CNY and Korea trip!
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Happy New Year!

2011-12-31T22:33:00.001+08:00

It has been a rather happening 2011 for me.. Hard to put into words, but I guess it's in a good way!
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Really gotta thank God for His guidance, providence & blessings, especially in moulding my character. Things are looking good, thanks to God!
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Have recently gotten a job offer and after a week of serious mulling, I've decided to stay put and I'm really proud of my decision. I've been in this current company for less than a year and I've only started to feel comfortable in my job scope, so I hope to stay longer and enjoy the fruits of my labour which I've put in during probation!
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I also have experienced a lot more of God this year. I have come to realize the pivotal fact of life, which is: everyone faces the same physical ending, whether president or pauper. But our spiritual ending can be a choice. Do we want eternal separation from God, or spend eternity with God? It's such a slap in the face to see my life filled with wasted years doing silly meaningless things. Hence I have resolved to go towards blessing others around me in the coming year.
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And I'm typing all this on iPhone.. Din wanna type such an essay actually...

2011-12-29T16:57:00.001+08:00

Last work day of year 2011! Praying for an easy and relaxed 2012!!
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Been reading Zig Zaglar's Better than Good for the past few days. It's such a great book, with full of perky quotes and simple enlightening truths. I wanna get more of his books! It's true that when u fill your mind with positive thoughts, there will be no room for negative ones!
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I've been mulling over a big dilemma for the past 1 week, every single day. But it's finally over and it's like this huge heavy rock off my chest. I can finally do my other stuff!! Tomorrow i'm off. Intend to do some spring cleaning (good weather, better start now so I wun perspire too much), then bring my mum n girl to TPY for lunch at Sizzler. Got a few coupons to use... $10 off 2 main courses... 1-for-1 Salad Bar... Cannot waste!

point form

2011-12-20T15:57:00.001+08:00

i seem to be blogging lesser and lesser eh. Okay here are my updates in point form:
1) I've been gorging like mad. Festive = Fattening. Steamboat buffets/ hotel buffets/ food reviews!
2) I'll be going on a diet right after Christmas. Haven decided on what I should do though. I need to lose some weight for the Korea trip coz I'll be gorging over there, again.
3) Currently watching 怒火街头. Very, very addictive. At least 2 episodes every night.
4) And that's causing me to feel super tired during the day. :( Tired - lazy to do my crunches --> getting fat as a result.
5) I've stopped my vocal lessons after a month.
6) Going on a date with hubby this Thursday. Spa, Sentosa, Voyage de la vie!
7) Boss gave me a Clarins Multi-Active Trial Pack. Trying it now, love the smell.
8) I bought 2 tops and 1 casual dress for $30 at Cotton On yesterday. Super good deal!

Hehe.

FAT

2011-12-12T17:25:00.001+08:00

i have finally finished one bottle of perfume ahahaha. I'm left with my VS's Noir which is taking forever to deplete coz I only put that on sometimes... Argh whatever, I still want to get a new perfume!
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I'm on leave tomorrow and wednesday. Not doing much.. Gonna be home tomorrow till 5pm then off I go for my Feilouship review dinner. Wednesday I'm meeting Linda for lunch and Belle for dinner. Hmm, maybe i'll bring my girl down to the nearby void deck for some scooter practice tomorrow morning. Provided it's not too windy. And maybe, I should hit the gym on Wednesday after lunch with Linda. I REALLY OUGHT TO EXERCISE!

Another 3 days

2011-12-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

Of leave! Actually not very in the mood for leave.. But I'm even more no mood to work! Ha.
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8-day Korea trip is confirmed. Still a long way though.. Another 2 months. First time I'm going so far and so long! And it will be my first time experiencing super cold weather. Looking forward to kimchi, steamboats and BBQ!!
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I'm interested to explore the Korean language and culture, since i have kinda given up on Japanese language and culture after that nuclear incident happened i.e. i will definitely not be visiting Japan for the rest of my life. Korea is a far cheaper and more practical place to visit! Strange, Japan entertainment scene has kinda died down after Korea entertainment exploded into the world scene. I've been resistant to Korea entertainment for the past ten years. Think I should relent a bit la..
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But I'm not sure if I should plunge into it now, cos it may be another impulsive move again. Lemme self-learn some simple Korean language first bah.

Bless!

2011-11-25T15:59:00.001+08:00

Sounds so wrong. Puss sounds female..but it's a Mister. ahahahah. Terribly confused cat. Going to watch the movie tomorrow morning with my girl, hope it's fun! Hubby has opted out of the movie, so its jus me and my girl :)
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read this on weibo:
你所浪费的今天，是昨天死去的人奢望的明天。你所厌恶的现在，是未来的你回不去的曾经.
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People (points to self) love to complain about what they lack, what they want, what they should have. Life can be gone in a flash, 真的不需要那么执著的。If you don't have a Chanel bag (points to self), just be contented with your Kate Spade. If you don't have a wonderfully interesting job (points to self), just be contented with your boring job. :) If you don't have $ to go Europe or USA, just be contented with Sentosa or Pasir Ris chalet. It really doesn't matter!!
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Most important is, use the time we have on earth to love the people around us, because it's more blessed to give than to receive. We are already here on earth, so might as well make full use of our life to bless others!

i love black!

2011-11-24T16:40:00.001+08:00

and I haven't updated my blog for 2 weeks...i usually blog at work, so if i don't blog, means i'm busy at work. haiz. Why am I so busy! Today's better, I got time to do my own stuff :)
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i've just decided to start using the iPhone calendar as my scheduler. Hopefully I can get used to an electronic device instead of a paper diary, cos it will mean a lighter bag!
Coz i am also carrying my vocal class notebook and sometimes my sermon notebook also..and I hope to bring along my bible out with me everyday.. haha.
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I'm so tired lately, because of Birdie Buddy. I'm finally at the second last episode, and I intend to finish the drama by today. Argh, chasing drama is so addictive and it makes me so tired. But it's nice lahhh.. And I still have half of 点解阿Sir系阿Sir to finish too hahaha.
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Have been using my new Kate Spade bag for nearly a week now, haha. Black bags are really cool, I don't have to be worried about it getting stained or dirtied. :)) I'll be using this bag for the next 1 year at least, so it better LAST. Ah, i've taken over hubby's iPhone 4 too, and i've decided to use the original black Apple bumper to protect it. It looks super black now and I like it! Think I'm changing my tastes...
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Why am I rambling so randomly. zzz. Oh I've taken 2 vocal lessons so far, and it's quite fun. Just a bit frustrated that I seem to sing badly during class leh, probably nervous or too worried about my singing ability. Sigh. Hopefully I can get to sing as per normal soon. I have quite a lot in common with my only classmate, Jeannie. We are both in our 30s, we both have a kid aged 5, and all we want is to sing correctly and sing better!
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I've been starting to eat a lot. I've lost some weight, strangely, cos I seem to be eating more than usual. My pants are all very loose, just that my face looks just as fat :S I haven been exercising too; use my gym once ONCE ever sinced I moved in June lol. Perhaps I should do some walking around the estate or something.. Say say only ah. Don't think I got time, Unless I wake up at 6am in the morning to do it. I've been sleeping at 1am these few nights, how to wake up at 6?
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Life is all about making decisions, isn't it. I have only myself to blame if I don't succeed in my goals!

Lee Yong Woo

2011-11-10T13:47:00.000+08:00

This is my very first Korean actor whom I will remember the name, thanks to Birdie Buddy, a Korean drama he acted in that's now showing on cable.

this particular shot looks like a milder version of the Japanese actor Sorimachi Takashi, whom i used to like. lol.

Here's Sorimachi. See the slight resemblance? :)

Anyway, Birdie Buddy is the first Korean drama i'm watching. Finally eh? The movie My Sassy Girl disgusted me so much that I put a stop to all Korean stuff. After watching Birdie Buddy, I feel that Japanese and Korean language and culture do have something in common, just that Japanese drama tends to film at more artistically beautiful angles, and Korean actors/ actresses have done plastic surgery before haha.

finally going for my first vocal class tonight! Not feeling very well actually, having a congested stuffy nose :(

someone else.

2011-11-02T17:47:00.001+08:00

ha, ha, ha. the pills seem to be working well, together with Cetaphil cleanser! My acne is showing signs of drying up, and no new acne!
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After 6 years of being in the legal industry doing legal administration and support, I have come to a conclusion.
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It's just not me. I've been trying to be someone else for 6 years, every weekday, for 9 hours daily.

The natural way

2011-10-27T09:43:00.001+08:00

Goodness, I've been so busy at work last week and this week, that I haven blogged for an entire 2 weeks! Sigh. I've been doing overtime for the past 2 weeks. too tired for anything else man. the even more tiring fact is, the overtime isn't paid.
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So, i'm going to spend some time blogging now. My current obsession is: my complexion. It has become very very very bad. Topical creams aren't doing any good, hence I suspect it's all internal. Unbalanced hormones or something like that. Hence I went to GNC yesterday and bought Herpanacine which is supposed to offer total skin support. Expensive leh, about $60 after discount for 100 capsules. I can take up to 6 pills per day. I took 5 yesterday and 3 this morning. Hope it works soon! I also went NTUC and bought Cetaphil for my face cleansing. Oh, and I started using aloe vera to apply on my face every night. Yeah, real aloe vera plant slices. As you can see, I'm trying to go NATURAL, which I guess is the safer way.
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Will update on the effectiveness of the pills soon!!

<白蛇传说> 观后感

2011-10-12T16:36:00.001+08:00

Went to watch this show with Hubby last Thursday night, which was the official first day of the movie screening. We were at AMK Hub's Cathay, coz I love Cathay's cushy seats!

If not for Fung, I would not have gone to watch this movie. Basically, I don't watch Chinese movies at the cinema coz Chinese movies are usually shorter in length and not much special effects i.e. waste of money. But this has both Fung and special effects, so it was a MUST-GO for me! Hubby loves Chinese movies especially in the ancient setting too :)

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Fung's Mandarin narration was superb!! I have nothing to say about his acting - great as always. Think Eva and him did well together, their chemistry was really not bad at all :) It was an entertaining show, and I loved the humorous bits totally, coz i wasn't expecting any ahha. Overall, I find this movie better than Jade & Pearl and Perfect Wedding.

I contacted a few Honeys, they were all so excited about the show like me haha. Although the fan club has been very quiet since his SG concert, the love and support for Fung is still very much there! Hooray :) We all love Fung!

I'm a Honey!

2011-10-11T11:31:00.001+08:00

Spent the past 2 nights watching Fung's Light Up My Live Concert DVD. He is getting better and better every year! Let's hope I will be able to go for his concert in 2012 :) I've been his fan since 2009 after I watched 岁月风云. Then came his concerts.. Let's Get Wet was in 2009, Come 2 Me was in 2010 (which I went) and 2011 is Light Up My Live. I feel that having this '粉丝' relationship with a particular performer is a very unique and special experience. Think I have mentioned earlier, a 粉丝 relationship is a different experience from a husband-wife relationship, or a friendship or a sibling relationship. Not sure about how other fans feel, but to me, it's definitely a different kind of experience.
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Being a fan, I admire and love Fung's performances. I trust Fung and his character. I wish all the best for Fung. I pray for Fung even.
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I will always treasure this 粉丝 relationship with Fung. Think it's sort of a 缘份。He may not know me, but it doesnt matter. Being a fan, you willingly continue to support your performer no matter what happens. As long as Fung is happy and successful, I am contented. Don't have to be loud about it, don't have to show off or whatever, what the performer appreciates most is the fan's support in her own best way possible.
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It doesn't matter how short or long you remain a 粉丝. Some people may remain fans for a shorter period of time and have to stop due to personal commitments, which are perfectly understandable. For me, I definitely do not see Fung as my number 1 priority in life. I have my family and other commitments to care for. I cannot afford to travel to wherever he has his performances, although I will definitely do that if I am single and rich hehehe.
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I am glad that my hubby totally understands my support for Fung. Some hubbies will feel jealous when their wives go crazy over a male performer. But hubbies need to understand that being a fan is a different thing altogether! It's just a form of faithful support, not infatuation or crush lehz. :)
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Okay, it's Tuesday and I am on leave this Friday AGAIN!

TESOL

2011-10-06T17:28:00.001+08:00

Yay i am going to watch White Snake tonight with hubby! It's a late night show, so I hope I wun see anyone familiar lol. Don't think so bah, since tomorrow is a working day. :P But then again, some people may take leave tomorrow, like me haha.
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I really need a warmer jacket at work. The air-con is so biting cold I can feel my breasts contracting =.= I seem to be having a lower tolerance for the cold lately. I feel cold so easily. Like yesterday night at Coffee Bean with Sharon, I got so cold that I got a slight rash on the side of my face. yup my skin is that sensitive. But it was a good time with Sharon yesterday. I super enjoyed my Black Forest too! My all-time favourite :) The bits of coffee beans and cherries make the perfect combination!
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I'm really thankful for this job that God has blessed me with. The jobscope is clear, I don't have much overtime and my buddy at work is a darling :) We really have quite a lot in common despite our 10 year difference in age ahahaha. In fact, I am not really bothered by the age difference. ;P
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I feel like studying law together with hubby next year. It will be a nice experience to study together :) But it's just a thought! I dun tink I am ready to plunge again into another 2 years of mugging.. lol. But i really do not mind studying TESOL, which is only 4 months and enables me to teach parttime also. Maybe I can take it up when my girl goes P1 and I have extra $$ to spare. It costs around $670 per month if I take it up. Oh and the best part is, it's open book exams ahahaha. Imagine the amount of money I can make from giving tuition after my day job! :)

Meaningless!

2011-10-06T09:55:00.000+08:00

I started to read the book of Revelation for the past 2 nights using the Application Bible. I need some reassurance and solid foundation from the Word of God regarding life! Thinking and worrying all day all night doesn't do much help; I might as well read and understand more about it.
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I think I am showing signs of depression, seriously. I am getting increasingly cranky and moody. I dun feel like learning anything anymore, coz it will be futile eventually. I dun feel like doing anything anymore, coz it's of no use. Before I do anything, I will think: what good will it make if i do this? Life is just a temporal moment.. life can be gone in a flash and all our accomplishments/ trophies/ rewards will be useless. So why spend so much time doing things that aren't worthy of my time?
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The only thing worthy of my time is to spend time with God. Spend time with my Creator and spend time reading what He says in the Bible, because this world will pass away, but God's word will live forever.
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I live in this fallen world where man has chosen to sin. There is imperfection in this world, hence there are tragedies, misfortunes, accidents, disasters, catastrophes that are happening all over. There are uncertainties everywhere and I, as an imperfect human being, have no control over what's going to happen to me or my loved ones the next day. As a mother, i feel an enormous responsibility over the well-being of my child especially. I do my humanly best to take care of her, and now my problem is, I find it tough to let go and let God take control. Scary thoughts overwhelme me often and I cannot sleep.
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I wonder why people can make plans and look forward to fulfilling them, when they dun even know what's going to happen the next day. Steve Jobs is such a classic example. Regardless of how accomplished you are, how dignified you are, how successful you are, everyone faces the same ending - back to the box. It's a choice I have to make - to live my life to the fullest in the most meaningful & impactful way possible.
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Yes, everyone faces the same ending. The real difference comes after that - we can choose to face a 2nd death i.e. eternal separation from God or eternal joy with God. it's a real simple choice, and I have chosen the latter. And perhaps the most meaningful thing to do in this lifetime, is to help people see this real difference.

the few important things to remember.

2011-09-30T17:06:00.001+08:00

Last day of September 2011.

Just spoken to CS earlier this morning.

Her golden words:

Just remember that no matter what role u play, the heart matters most to God and he wants our obedience more than our service or sacrifice.

Build strong relationship, lead by example and be humble.

depressed

2011-09-29T14:18:00.001+08:00

I feel like i am suffering from an early attack of mid-life crisis. I am now lamenting over what the meaning of life is. Everything is truly meaningless. Every achievement will fade into nothingness someday and they are nothing but faint memories. Beauty is temporal, same goes for fame, popularity, riches and power. So I wonder, what truly is more meaningful?
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I wanna be good at many things.
I wanna be good at singing, dancing and playing guitar. I wanna be fit and slim.
I wanna have a talent. You know, an exceptional talent, not just a so-so kind of skill, but I wanna be told that I am fantastic at something.
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But one day, it's all going to go back into the box. Life is nothing but a fleeting moment. I sound suicidal, don't i?
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Yesterday I was on leave with hubby. In the morning, we went to a workshop to do some free car seat coat conditioning. We registered with this young girl who looked maybe max 25 years old. I was wondering, what was she doing there in the old run-down car workshop in the middle of some ulu-sembawang industrial area? I dun think she gets a great pay from this kind of job. with her pretty looks and possibly diploma education, she can do much better in a better company. I was just so baffled.

Hubby and I then went to Textile Centre for food review. We did a reccee of Textile Centre and we saw many many old textile/ trading companies in that centre. Quite a few of them had altars right in front of their shops. There were quite a few licensed moneylenders in there too. So you can roughly imagine the scenario that I was seeing there. Old & small companies that don't look very promising.

Then something caught my eye. I saw a few young ladies working inside these small companies (many of them are shop fronts, hence even if it's a proper office, it was all glass panels which I can see through) and I wondered again, why did they choose to work in such companies when they can get better jobs out there? I mean, I wouldn't wanna work in such a company coz I will feel super insecure about the company's stability. The place is also so eerie and old.

I thought a lot about what I saw yesterday. and I came to a conclusion. They chose to stay in such companies because of reasons which they deem as valid. It can be any of these reasons:

It's a family business.
They dislike change.
They are happy working there.
They have a deep sense of loyalty.

Whatever the case is, I envy them. I realised that $$$ is no longer a considering factor to them. But the intangible reasons hold much more importance.
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Back to my suicidal thoughts. I have 24 hours a day, not that I have a choice. I have a life to live, not that I have a choice either. We just live because we are human beings and thats what we are supposed to do. and after 70 years, we are supposed to go back into the box. There is no reason to do anything anymore, isn't it?

This is getting endless. So please allow me to conclude. I do believe in a Creator who created me and everything else. And that is the start of everything.

Ecclesiastes is a book in the Bible that talks about everything being meaningless, and I feel exactly how the author feels!

But in Chapter 9, after all the depressing facts, he wrote-

"Go, eat your food with gladness, and drink your wine with a joyful heart, for God has already approved what you do. Always be clothed in white, and always anoint your head with oil. Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life that God has given you under the sun—all your meaningless days. For this is your lot in life and in your toilsome labor under the sun. Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the realm of the dead, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom."

In summary, we just have to make do with what we've got and make the bloody best out of it! =.=

Okay, settled.

2011-09-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

Being on leave with hubby really is a good thing. We managed to have ample time to nua together and chat about our plans moving forward. He has decided more or less to start with his second degree next February and he hopes I can give him my fullest support.

which means.. i better not start on any new hobbies or interests.

Ha, i am glad i did not do anything on impulse during the past few weeks! I shall try my bestest to stick strictly to my family role, church role, LG role and Feilouship role. Now till Feb ... 4 months more. Then 2 years plus of full support to hubby as he starts that intensive degree.

Ok, settled.

i cannot decide

2011-09-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

i cannot decide
i cannot decide
i cannot decide
i cannot decide
i cannot decide
i cannot decide
i cannot decide

There are so many things i wanna do/ learn.
aerobics
pilates
ballet
singing
keyboard
guitar

but i dunno which one to choose.
rather, i dunno if i should choose one at all.

after all, i am a Christian who should be spending time doing what is more purposeful.
after all, i am a mum who should be spending time with my child during these precious pre-school years.

Whenever I found a course that seems suitable for my schedule, i will go thinking 'I can spend this 1 hour at home with my girl and not at this aerobics class'. SIGHHH...

Now, what do i have on my plate now?
1) Work
2) Family
3) Church/ LG
4) Feilouship

Maybe that's quite enough to handle for now?
My mind jus refuses to stop wandering away to other areas of interest. I just keep on feeling unaccomplished, dissatisfied. I just dunno how to stop myself from feeling this way. It's just so plain irritating that i feel like slapping myself.

monday feels like friday!

2011-09-26T16:50:00.001+08:00

Hubby and I have signed up for the volunteer recruitment in our church. He signed up for Logistics Personnel and Hospitality Personnel and I signed up for Vocalist. And no, i did not sign up for Acting hahaha.
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Busy weekend is over. I'm at work today and on leave tomorrow and wednesday. Will be going to review food for the Textile Centre project with hubby, might as well :) We do not have any plans anyway. Just laze around and eat eat eat lor. It's also a good time to talk about future plans, if any. No, no. 2 is not on the agenda :)

sian sian sian

2011-09-20T13:32:00.001+08:00

got the news that the evil boss from Tiger has resigned and her last day is today. Yup, thats the boss that forced all of us from the legal dept to quit back then. and after we left, she quit. The whole legal department disintegrated in her hands and it's her turn to 拍拍屁股走人. =.= Oh well.
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Sigh the vocal school that I paid deposit to, still hasn't gotten back to me on a confirmed day yet. I have a good mind to call her and tell her that I am not going to wait anymore. and maybe start on some ballet classes where I can get into shape and maybe get back some of my flexibility too. I really wish I can start soon.. But my girl is going to start on her new kindergarten soon and I am concerned about her transition.
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Dunno why, i feel so damn vexed lar. It seems that I cannot do what I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LS

2011-09-19T13:33:00.001+08:00

I just cleared my system this morning. 3 times. Should be quite empty now. Doris's organic powder really helps man, better than fybogel! haha. I had all sorts of carbo meals over the weekend..lor mee, fried bee hoon, char siew rice..ARGH. was feeling damn bloated since Sat evening after the char siew rice. but after abstaining from rice for so long, that packet of rice tasted heavenly lor ahaha. and it was plain white rice. lol.
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Holding a party for my girl's birthday this weekend. I seriously doubt I will ever do such a thing again coz it's mentally quite stressful and the worst part is, I get so upset when people whom I expect them to turn up, don't. On my part, I shouldn't be expecting anything in the first place. But I think it's only human for me to feel disappointed that people whom i tot are close to my heart aren't even supporting me in this occasion. For this birthday party, I am inviting mainly church friends and relatives. Other than that, I am also inviting Belle & Jul with their kids coz our 3 kids are of the same age and it was always fun to see them together in previous occasions. Belle, Jul and I go a long way back. We knew one another since 2000 at Outback Steakhouse! Jul is closer to Belle as they remained in contact even after they left Outback; Belle and I have been in contact all the while.
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Yeah, so I don't think I will hold such parties anymore.
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My Feedback Letter to PCF & MCYS

2011-09-16T16:33:00.001+08:00

My hubby and I registered our 5-year-old girl for K1 classes at PCF (Blk 441 Sin Ming Ave) back in May 2011, as we would move there in June 2011.

She started her classes on July 2011, and we were confident that she would settle in nicely in her new class, as she was a friendly and cheerful girl. Previously, she was one of the best students in the previous PCF kindergarten in Sembawang and was well-liked by teachers and her classmates.

Exactly after 1 month into the new class, my mum was outside the classroom and she spotted this:

It was Chinese lesson time. Every child had their Chinese exercise book and was writing on them. My girl was the only one who did not have the Chinese exercise book and she was given some blank pieces of paper. She was trying to draw lines on the blank pieces of paper, so she could start writing the Chinese words. But she was unable to draw straight lines well; hence she took a long time to draw them. My mum heard her classmates telling her "You are so slow!" The classmates even took her paper away from her and started scribbling on it. The Chinese teacher was at the other side of the classroom all this while, with some other students. My girl then went to the toilet and stayed there for a long time.

The Chinese teacher finally appeared and went to look for my girl in the toilet. When she came out of the toilet with the Chinese teacher, it turned out that she went in and cried quietly inside.

After this incident, my husband and I went to see the principal the next day and we asked her why my girl did not have the Chinese exercise book even though it has been one whole month. The principal then pointed to a box on the floor in her room and said 'Ah, the Chinese exercise books have just arrived'. Then she opened up the box and showed us the Chinese exercise books, while giving some feeble excuses that she was packed with meetings and workshops these few weeks.

Points to Note:

1) We have registered our girl even before the June holidays started. The principal/ administrator should have ample time to order books for my girl before she started in July. It is absolutely unacceptable that she had no Chinese exercise book for one whole month. The principal did not even buy a temporary exercise book for her, nor did the principal inform us to buy a temporary exercise book for her. There was obviously lack of communication and a lack of responsibility towards the welfare of the children. The teachers showed an obvious lack of common sense and understanding of how left out a child will feel if he/ she is the odd one out in class. And the teachers probably did not realise that the odd student will also be jeered at by the rest of the students. Further, my girl is the newest student and is a stranger to the rest of the children who have been in the class since January. The jeering effect will be magnified many times. Did the teachers realise that at all? It appears that they did not analyse the whole situation. Was teaching just a job to them?

2) My girl was left alone with her 2 female classmates at one end of the classroom for a good ten minutes and hence the opportunity for them to scribble on her paper and tease her for being slow. The teacher should be moving around the classroom (especially when the classroom is big) and making sure that all students are doing their work and not teasing other students. If my girl is really slow compared to the rest of the students, the teacher needs to group her with the slower students so she can sit with them and guide them. Then the slower students will feel more comfortable and less pressurized. This is a common practice in many schools.

3) My girl was given BLANK pieces of paper to write her words. It appears that the teacher was too busy or perhaps too "bo-chap" to draw lines for my girl. My girl was slow because she had to draw those lines, while the rest of the students already had the lines in the exercise book. As a result she was being called 'slow'. From the way my girl responded to their jeering (she went into the toilet and cried for a long time in there), it was apparent that she was deeply affected by this incident and this may have created a long term negative impression in her heart and mind. This may also cause her to think that she really is a slow student and will affect her learning and confidence in the long term. Are the teaching staffs of this school going to take full responsibility for this?

During our session with the principal and the Chinese teacher, they did not offer any apology nor looked remorseful for what has happened.

I spoke to her English teacher as well, regarding her being teased/ bullied by her classmates. The English teacher advised me to let my girl learn how to handle her friends on her own. However, she being a new student, the teachers have a very important part to play in making her feel part of the family! Being a new student, she already feels shy and unfamiliar. Leaving her alone and letting her classmates tease her will only make her feel even more left out! The teachers should be paying extra attention to her! But the English teacher seemed confident in her 'theory' and sounded as though I am acting too overly concerned for my girl.

After this incident, my mum, who is my girl's babysitter as well, started to observe the class a bit more attentively. We observed the following:

1) My girl is still being seated at the far end of the classroom and still being teased by her classmates for being slow; and the teacher is nowhere to be seen. Nothing has been done to improve the situation. The more jeering my girl receives, the less confident she will feel about her ability and her desire for learning will decrease. Is the teacher willing to accept all responsibility for this eventual result and compensate me for the extra lessons/ time I have to spend in rekindling her learning desire?

2) While the Chinese teacher is teaching and the students are on the floor listening to her, the English teacher is seen eating her rice at the table right next to the students. Does the teacher treat her classroom as her home?

3) My girl's nicely braided hair is being pulled into a mess by her friend behind her. We did not report this to the teacher, nor did the teacher inform us that they knew about it;

4) My girl has changed from a cheerful friendly girl to someone who is fearful and quiet in class. Again, are the teachers willing to take responsibility for this change?

5) I asked the English teacher (on the communication book) about when is a good timing to celebrate my girl's birthday in class. She indicated that their snack time is from 910am to 1025am. 1 hour 15 minutes for snack time?? Actual class time is from 8am to 12pm. The teachers start their class proper only at 815am, and they are usually wearing their shoes by 1145am. After deduction, that leaves only 2 hours 15 minutes of proper lesson time. Is there a reasonable explanation on why the class timetable is planned this way?

6) Different PCF branches have different timings and different fee amounts. That is fine. But it appears that the standard of teaching differs greatly from branch to branch. My nieces who attend another PCF (K1 as well) have plenty of homework as well as English/ Chinese spelling. At this PCF, there is no homework and they are not doing much work in class. Is there an explanation? PCF may be the cheapest solution for kindergartens in Singapore, but I hope that being education providers, the PCF management is educated enough to realise that pre-school education is to be of good quality, because the first 7 years of the child's life will decide how he/ she will fare in his/ her later years!

The next incident happened after the Sept holidays, and it is also related to the 1st incident, regarding the Chinese exercise book. On Monday after the Sept holidays, I noticed that a parent returned the Chinese exercise book to the English teacher. On that Monday afternoon, I called the Chinese teacher and told her if the Chinese exercise book was with her, as it was not returned to me before the holidays.

Excerpt of conversation (we spoke in Mandarin):-

Teacher: Yes the Chinese exercise book wasn't returned to you because your girl was absent on the last day before the holidays.

Me: Oh ok, sure. I saw that you have put in a brand new Chinese exercise book in my girl's bag today after class with words for her to practise on. Why did you use a new Chinese exercise book and not the old one that she was using in August and September?

Teacher: Oh, the class did not use the Chinese exercise book at all in August and September. That's why it appears brand new.

Me: Huh? U did not use the Chinese exercise book at all for the whole of August and September?

Teacher: We did not use, that Chinese exercise book is like an extra thing, and we have been using the Chinese assessment books in August and September.

Points to Note:

1) The Chinese assessment books were returned to us during the Sept holidays. I flipped through both books. Only 3-4 pages have been done, for both Chinese assessment books. Why was so little done when the students were using the assesment books for the whole of August and September?

2) After looking at the little that was done in the assessment books, I find it hard to believe that the students did not practise their writing on the Chinese exercise book at all for the whole of August and September. What could they have been doing in class then? Playing with toys?

3) In the event that the teacher was lying to me and they did actually practise their writing on the Chinese exercise book, the next question will be: was my girl actually given a Chinese exercise book in class in early August after we found out that she was using blank paper to practise her writing (in the earlier incident)? Or was she still given blank paper to practise on in August and September?

My husband and I are utterly disappointed and upset with this PCF branch. The teachers are uncaring, proud and seem more interested in chatting up with the parents than properly educating the children. The principal is too busy with her meetings and workshops. They do not put in extra effort in welcoming my girl into the class and expect a 5-year-old to be able to handle the new class and the new faces all by herself.

My husband, whose surname is Lim, has sent an SMS to the principal this morning and informed her that our girl, will not be attending class. My husband included my girl's full name in the SMS for her easy reference as well.

The principal replied "Dear Mr Tan, noted. Please take some time to come by and fill up the withdrawal form and collect her materials."

Perhaps PCF should take some time to evaluate the kind of staff they are employing. Looking at all the carelessness that is shown in this PCF branch, it seems more harm than good for a child to attend class there.

Irritants!!

2011-09-12T17:42:00.001+08:00

My girl's back at school today and both teachers have successfully pissed me off with their absolute blur-ness, incapacity and incompetence. ARGH. They have to do this to me every once in a while. My girl has been in this school for a term already, and I still don't see anything worth commending. I do not have high expectations, I just need my girl to enjoy her school, learn whatever K1 kids need to learn and no admin hiccups, thats all! This is effectively the 2nd time that I am thinking of changing school for my girl. But then again, she should be taught by a different teacher next year onwards for K2, so maybe the K2 teacher is a better one..HAIZ. Just another 2 months and it'll be December holidays. Should I let her continue K2 there??

friends

2011-09-06T18:05:00.001+08:00

Had a most interesting discussion during lunchtime with my colleague. About friends and friendships.
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I have officially broken 2 friendships in my entire life. I shall not argue whether it's their fault or mine, i will take it that it's my fault. In essence, 2 friendships have been broken. As I think back, I am filled with regret over what had happened. And they are called regrets because the hurt has been done and time cannot be reversed. So this is how regrets feel like. It's like a sour feeling in my heart, knowing the mistakes made and yet unable to repair anything.
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Best friend? I have none. I envy ladies who have best friends. Best friends who can chat together, share woes together, shop together, buy things for each other etc. I dunno, after i got married, having time with friends became quite impossible. My timetable consists of spending time with my girl, with my hubby, with my cell group, with Feilouship and thats about it. Filled up to the brim already. *shrugs*
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On leave tml, again!

act? i can only act blur.

2011-09-02T17:33:00.001+08:00

This must be the longest sore throat I ever have. 2 weeks liao!! zzz.
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It's gonna be a long weekend for me. I will be on leave this coming Monday as well. Probably going to stay home with my darling just to make sure she recovers completely from her draggy cough. Haven done painting or play doh with her for a long time, so yes, it's time to drag those toys out!! And maybe I will try to play pretend with her, with all those Barbie dolls. It will be very fun, if I decide to get into the PRETEND mood.
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Talking about pretending, I have 2 friends telling me that I should try acting. No not go Mediacorp. Try acting in church e.g. musicals/ plays/ skits. Go for audition.
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Yeah i went =.= when i heard that. It's the first time in my entire life that I heard someone say 'u look like u can act'.
How do u know if someone can act, unless they start acting right in front of u? It's really hard to tell isn't it?
I am not saying that my friends are lying. But I am just so doubtful. I have never acted before, i dun even know if i can act.
So the question now is, do I wanna try?
Haha, I've pushed the responsibility of answering this question to God, so i'll see what He says la.
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A friend, or should I call 'ex-friend' has removed me from her Facebook and Weibo friends list. I tried to think damn hard on what has exactly happened that made her hate me so much. The only thing I could remember was that I exchanged a few Facebook comments with her on Facebook during the General Election period. She was very against the PAP policies and stuff, whereas I was contented and supportive of whatever PAP was doing. She then posted on her blog about her views on this whole politics hoo-har, and mentioned me I tink (although did not state my name). Then she stopped contacting me.
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Is this incident sufficient reason to hate me? I hardly think so. I mean, i dun even know if this is the reason why she now hates me. But I am not going to keep on guessing and wondering why. I have better things to do you know. I don't hate her, I just accept her for who she is and I accept her viewpoint of me, even if it is clearly a distorted viewpoint. And I still regard her as a friend whom I have shared good times with.
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I may be starting singing lessons soon. As soon as the school calls me and confirms a day with me. either tuesday or thursday. Wondering if i will get too busy.
Ah well, i'll jus take a step at a time..

BBQ

2011-08-25T15:20:00.001+08:00

I am having a stupid stuffy nose :( all becos of the Prospan cough syrup I took last night. Somehow it made me feel worse! Argh.
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Yesterday hubby, my mum and I had a good time at NTUC shopping for our BBQ this Saturday with Jon and Shervon. We bought lots of cool raw food!

Shishamo (I actually found a pic of shishamo on the BBQ! ahaha)

cheese and garlic sausages!

Rib eye steaks!

Drumsticks!

Mid-joints!

Streaky bacon!!!

Tiger prawns!

Planta Margarine!

BBQ Sauce!

My mum is gg to do up some fried bee hoon as staple too.

So looking forward :)

chiong!

2011-08-24T13:46:00.002+08:00

I watched 3 episodes of On The Fringe yesterday night, until 1230am. And overslept this morning =.= But I am now left with only 1 more episode! The last one! Before I start on the next one, which is what I am looking forward to! Cos got 宣萱! :D Oh, and I just bought a one-month subscription on MioTV, which allows me to chiong many episodes at one go ahaha. YAY. Good also, coz I can then do stuff with my girl at 9pm instead of being glued to the TV.
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My sore throat is finally getting better, but the phlegm is still there haiz. Maybe another week for it to be fully gone.
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took a picture of this coz it looked so pretty. It was my dinner last nite. Yeah, I don't take rice for dinner, so I have plenty of soup and i'll just eat the meat/ veg that my mum cooks. And of course, the best accompanying spring onion! It makes the soup so YUMMY!

unbearably draggy day.

2011-08-23T17:09:00.000+08:00

4-day work week this week, coz i am on leave this Friday! Wee. My very first leave in this company :-)
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Gotta plan swee swee on Friday's timetable, cos we have lots to do!
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8-815am - send my girl to school
815-9am - breakfast at Thomson Plaza (Hans/ KFC/ YaKun)
9-930am - buy 3 bottles of wine & wrapping paper at NTUC for FLS BBQ
930-10am - Journey to IKEA (Tampines is nearer, and its free parking!)
10-11am - Buy door gifts for FLS BBQ
11-1130am - Journey back home and pick my girl up from school
Afternoon how leh?...
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By tomorrow, I also need to order food for next Tuesday gathering at my place. Either Lee Wee or Qi Ji bah. If Seetha is coming, I shall try http://theshepherdspie.com/ which delivers Veggie Lovers Shepherd's Pie ;-)
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I also have to complete my Wine Ettiquette Discussion Notes by this weekend! :S

Pursuing Passion Step 1 - Done!

2011-08-20T01:12:00.001+08:00

I've officially made that first step to pursue my passion. I've paid e deposit n registered for singing classes! Not sure when I can start yet, need to wait for school to call and let me know which level I'm suitable in. And now I am officially voiceless. Think I strained my voice during prayer night jus now sigh. Think it's time for me to start protecting my voice. No screeching when I sing, and no talking loudly. Celine Dion avoided talking before her concert! She used her voice only for singing. Cool :-)I realize that I strain my voice damn easily. Weak man. In ktv, I am gone case if I strain my voice once. Then it will start to spiral downhill. Stoopid. I need to learn singing properly la, in summary. Tired! Time to sleep.

To-Dos Aplenty!

2011-08-19T09:38:00.001+08:00

Plenty to do, plenty to do!!
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+ Vocal assessment today after work (which may mean new commitments very soon)
+ Apply POSB account tomorrow with my girl
+ Collect & Wash HopeBabies' mattress covers after service
+ Core Team Meeting this Sunday after service
+ FLS BBQ meeting cum review of Tai Hwa Bak Chor Meee & Happy Chef next Thur
+ On Leave next Friday to:
settle decoration service for my girl's bday party (helium balloons mainly - where to get them...)
buy FLS BBQ door gifts
buy 2 btls of wine for FLS BBQ wine ettiquete discussion
buy 2 group prizes
buy wrapping paper
buy BBQ food for gathering with Jon & Shervon
+ Vote in the PE first thing next Sat morning
+ Going for a parenting seminar next Sat morning with hubby and my girl, along with Belle, Kelvin, Lee, Emma and Lincoln!
+ BBQ with Jon & Shervon next Sat evening at my place
+ ex-Tiger colleagues coming over to my place for gathering on the following Tue which is a PH. Gotta order FOOD.
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Kaoz. it really does seem like a lot of things. zzz.
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missed my bus boo

2011-08-17T19:05:00.001+08:00

I'm on the next one now.. Ok la the next one came quite quickly heh. Hungry man. Gonna practise my assessment song twice, then go gobble up dinner, then go pick up my girl fr her class. Rush rush rush!Wonder if I have time to check out Tracy einny's new shop at j8? Hee.

backtrack

2011-08-17T17:59:00.001+08:00

I was just going through my previous posts half a year ago, and I realised that during the month of February this year, I asked myself what my passion was. In March, I lamented about how meaningless life was. In April, I said I needed to simplify.
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And here I am, half a year later, still asking the same question. I think if I dig back further into my blog posts, I will get a trend of bi-annual posts such as these.

too many thoughts.

2011-08-17T12:45:00.001+08:00

I found another music school yesterday! Going for an assessment this Friday, so I can be put in the suitable class. I seriously hope that there will be a Tue or Thur evening class so it doesn't clash with my girl's Mon and Wed evening classes.
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Today is Nomination for Presidential Election. I have a rough idea of who's gonna be in fighting for it. And I have zero-ed in on 2 of the possible ones I will vote for. Either Mr Tan or Mr Tan. Wahahah. Okay la on a serious note, I really really have zero-ed in le!
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Hubby has been fweaking busy with work, working late whole of this week. This Sat is his CC's National Day Dinner and it's on quite a big scale. 150 tables! =.= Tonight he has a Break-Fast event to attend as well and I am glad that the time to break fast isn't 10pm. At least he can pick my girl up after her class at 9pm.
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I've been watching 边缘父子 and I quite like it, strangely. Maybe I miss my secondary school days. ahaha. Fann Wong, for once, portrays a strong-headed and tough woman, which is quite refreshing from her previous drama characters. I think it's cool! Li Nanxing is also quite cute, especially when he gets to interact with his son. Oh the son Zhiyong (Edwin Goh's the real name) also quite cute leh ahaha. 男人不坏,女人不爱嘛. haha. Oops I've just found out his FB Fan Page and clicked LIKE! Lol.
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I'm 31 this year and I feel so OLD. I feel confused too. On one hand, i feel that i can do more in pursuing my passions. On the other hand, i feel that I shuld just focus fully on bringing up my girl and be a good support to hubby. Was just telling Belle last night, that i have been wanting to pursue my passions for years, but i always managed to stop myself from doing so due to my commitments. 3 of them - teaching, singing, dancing. I wish to work for my passion ultimately. sing/ dance/ teach singing/ teach dancing/ teach. I'm definitely not trying to become the next sun yanzi lar. I dun have the looks nor the age factor, unrealistic. But I know singing gives me an adreneline rush. Dancing too, but I rarely get to dance now ahaha. I want to possess a talent. I am definitely not considered talented in singing, I can only say that I am not tone-deaf. But I know singing can be improved, honed, perfected. So, I am gg to vocal classes!
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Still, I am confused.

Passion!

2011-08-16T14:36:00.001+08:00

oh dear i haven updated my blog for more than 1 week!! zzz. see, i have been so busy :S
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What have i been up to last week? Lemme check my diary..
Oh yah thats right, my girl was down with fever and cough. I was busy with national day celebration at my function room, as well as work coz buddy was on mc for 2 days after national day. absolutely no time to blog! then the weekend that jus passed, i was busy with my girl too. and she has recovered fully, just a bit of cough when she wakes up in the mornings. Thank God for blessing me with strength! :)
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It's Tuesday today, and it's already the middle of August. I'm three months old in this company le! Very grateful for this job, although first 2 months was quite hellish. If not for the wonderful colleagues I have in my department, I would not have survived! Now looking forward to next month where I'm gonna be on leave for quite a bit!~ Will take 2 days leave to accompany my girl during her 1-week holiday, and maybe another 2 days for a short trip to Batam with hubby. And another 1 day to prepare for my girl's birthday party end of the month. Very celebrative month :)
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Oh, i will also be starting my vocal classes too, next month! Currently have decided on attending Funkie Monkies, but i'm still enquiring at other schools. I am taking the very first step to pursuing my passion! :D

Friday!

2011-08-05T17:53:00.001+08:00

I am exceptionally tired today.
And there's so much work to do!
And time is passing exceptionally slowly! ARGH!
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i wonder how i am gg to lead praise and worship tonight during LG... well, never mind la. As long as I avail myself to serve others, as long as others are blessed, I should do it!

Zam zam here I come!

2011-08-04T16:59:00.001+08:00

I jus realised i haven't blogged for nearly a week! Ha, been busy with Feilouship stuff.. drafting emails and updating the Facebook Page. Also busy with my girl and watching drama with hubby lol. Started watching the new drama in advance, using MioTV. Thats how I spend time with hubby ahhaha. Tonight I gotta do up the songs for tomorrow's LG :S haiz. now that i am so busy with feilouship, i wish i can be freed from LG roles. :S :S :S
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I am so tired.. I spent my lunchtime doing up the document for the upcoming food review project. Quite braindead already. Guess tonight's carbo-filled zam zam dinner will perk me up :)

i am sad. because my girl is sad.

2011-07-28T11:03:00.001+08:00

Hubby and I went down at 730am this morning to look for the principal and teachers. Spent 45 minutes there with both English & Chinese teacher, and the principal. They were in luck that the exercise books arrived and were sitting in the principal's room. If not I would have insisted that one of them take a bus to the nearest book shop and get an exercise book there and then. Atrocious bochap attitude. Hope this morning call woke them up. They just gotta learn that they are handling young lives, they are shaping young lives. It's not just a job!
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The Chinese teacher told us that yesterday after her classmates doodled on her paper and scolded her for being so slow, she went to the toilet to get some toilet paper to wipe her tears and runny nose. She stayed in the toilet for a long time until the teacher went in to find her. My heart broke when I tried to imagine the misery she was in. She wasn't slow at all, she was just trying to draw the squares on the blank paper before she could start writing! Of course her classmates would have finished their writing before her! She must have felt so misunderstood and angry. She is a new student at this kindergarten, the teachers should know very well that they need to integrate her into this new school!! Keep an extra eye on her for these initial period! Does PCF means that I should not expect too much? I am paying $130 per month, not very cheap you know?
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We are not pampering our girl. We are ensuring that our girl doesn't end up dreading to learn.

PCF Kindergarten - Pui

2011-07-27T16:39:00.001+08:00

Too many insights in a day may not be good. My mum called me at 1215pm and reported to me the following:

1) My girl is the only one in class without an exercise book for her Chinese word writing.
2) She is hence given some blank pieces of paper to do her writing.
3) There were no lines on the blank paper, hence she had to draw lines herself. She ended up drawing very crooked lines and her work was a mess.
4) Her classmates were doodling on her blank pieces of paper in class.
5) My girl saw my mum, and she started crying, which was very unusual because she has no separation anxiety.

My immediate questions are:

1) Why didn't she have an exercise book even though she has been in this new kindergarten for ONE month?
2) Why did the Chinese teacher fail to draw lines for her, so that it resembles the outline of the exercise book?
3) Where was the Chinese teacher when the classmates were doodling on her paper?

Teachers' Mandate --> ******* Teachers exist to help kids learn**********

My ONLY concern is:

Why is the teacher helping my girl to DREAD learning when their responsibility is to help my girl learn?!

Hubby called the school immediately to ask about this matter. The principal claimed that my girl's exercise book hasn't arrived yet --> ABSOLUTE CRAP. The principal further told Hubby that she will investigate further. Fine, tomorrow I will go down and see what explanation they have to offer me. I don't think they will have any reasonable/ believeable explanation. If I don't get a sincere apology, this is going to go up to PCF HQ.

怕老婆

2011-07-27T10:36:00.001+08:00

3 more days to Hope Conference! Ha, I'm counting down everyday. Looking forward to it!!
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I posted on FB today "There is a difference between 怕老婆 and 尊重老婆."
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Men who 怕老婆 - seeks wife's opinion in every decision-making process, then obeys wife ultimately, even requests/ threats/ demands that are nonsensical/ unreasonable/ illogical/ stupid.
Men who 尊重老婆 - seeks wife's opinion in every decision-making process, if opinions clash, husband is able to rationalize logically with wife to come to a amicable/ reasonable/ win-win/ satisfying decision.
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After some observation, I realise that men who 怕老婆, 怕老婆 not because they naturally 怕老婆, but it's because their wives are unable to submit to them, hence resulting in the men having to submit instead, just to appease the wives. Some wives will prefer their husbands to be the 怕老婆 type, so they can do whatever they like in the marriage. Well, if the wives happen to be people who can make sensible and logical decisions all the time, then I have nothing to say. BUT most of the time, the wives merely THINK they are the type who can make better decisions than the husbands, but the truth is, they are really not good decision-makers.
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And the even more important point is, in a marriage, it's not just about you and your own whims and fancies. Every decision should be mutually agreed upon by both husband and wife. If not, get married for what? Stay single and lead your own life lor. You want a husband, you want children, you want legitimate sex, and now you want to bully your husband. A bit unfair leh.
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The natural order is for the husband to be one who brings back the dough while the wife nurtures the children. Of course, times have changed and we see the order reversed in many families. If both parties agree to reversing the order and dun mind doing reverse roles, that's great. However, I have to say that, not many men will want that because they naturally want to lead the woman of their lives. Men's desire is to provide for the family and their greatest satisfaction is to see their wife and children well taken care of. Regardless of the modernization of the world, this natural instinct still stays in most men.
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I mean, you don't see the lioness and the lion/ tiger and the tigress/ king bee and queen bee having conflicts. That's because the natural order is there and they dun intend to change it. We humans are more complicated coz we have what the animals do not have --> personalities/ different thinking patterns etc. Why not learn from the simple animals?
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Now, I would like to talk more about the men who try to appease their wives just to get some peace. Sure, peace is cool and keeps the wife happy. Of cos la, everything is according to the wife's wishes mah. Wife happy = husband happy. But this equation is not correct leh.
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Example: Wife wants $2000 LV bag. Husband says no $$. Wife gets into a depression-like mood and refuses to talk to him. Husband ends up borrowing $$ from friend to buy the $2000 bag for wife --> Wife Happy.
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In this case (and many other cases), the equation ends up in a huge mess. That is because the wife is unreasonable and demanding. Sometimes, even I can fall into such a trap. I think I deserve a nice bag every year (every half a year can?). I scold my hubby for no reason whenever I dun get enough sleep or enough food!!
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Hence, wives, I am sure you dun want husbands who 怕 you, but you will want husbands who 尊重 you. If you bully your husbands by imposing your selfish decisions on him, you can be sure he will lose that 尊重 for you. It's simple relationship skills. You lose friends that way too, isn't it?
Of course, husbands, in the same way, 尊重 your wives by including them in your decision making processes for the family. Talk it out, rationalize together, or involve a sensible 3rd party in if you need more advice.
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I know, I sound like I'm defending the men here hahaha. Perhaps my hubby has been a wonderful hubby these few years. :)

blah

2011-07-26T17:18:00.001+08:00

Busy Tuesday morning :) and 4 more days to Hope Conference! Hee. This morning I told my girl that Papa and I will be going to class on Saturday and Sunday, and she gave a sad face. But her face instantly lit up when I told her that I will be back home early today to help her with her unfinished Phonics worksheet and read a Princess storybook together. This week, I will be back early every evening after work just to be with my girl! Except for tomorrow, coz my girl has class till 9pm, I will go for a reccee for the food project until 8pm, before going to pick her up.
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Saturday was great with the JLP guys over at my place. The 3 kids had fun in the Alethea's toy room while the adults had the junkiest dinner of their life. Dominoes Pizza & KFC haha. Cannot have too much of such food coz we are all getting on in age haha. I've known these people since mid 2007 (except for Belle & Lee whom I've known for over 10 years since Outback days). I miss these ex-colleagues/ friends and I intend to treasure them for life :)
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Friendships are really fragile, I realised. I've broken a few of them over the past years, and they aren't really mendable. I am trying my best to be a better friend, to be less judgmental, less critical, to be more accepting and tolerant. Hubby has taught me quite a bit on relationships too. Things like, I shouldnt be imposing my opinion on others/ I shouldnt think that my views are always correct and others' views are always wrong. In fact, I am struggling with a certain friendship right now. Praying for breakthrough soon, coz it's such a thorn in the flesh :(
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Oh, I've decided to start my girl on Chinese next year. So, she will go for her first ballet class next Sunday evening. I can so imagine the shrieks she will give me when I tell her about it tonight. She has been really patient about it though, never once did she pester me about wanting to go ballet class (cos I explained to her that I will let her go for ballet class maybe a month after she has settled down in her new kindergarten). Her tutu that my mum bought for her is still sitting in the cupboard and she knows about it. She's just waiting patiently for the day to come where she will wear that and go for her class. :) And I'm proud that I've kept my promise! July has been her settling-down period and she's gg for ballet class on 1st week of August :)

2011-07-25T17:51:00.001+08:00

Sleepy Monday, thankfully work has been manageable so far, thank God. Realised that I cannot eat the Fancl pills after dinner, coz I wun be able to sleep well. It contains some ingredient that keeps one awake. I took it after dinner at around 7pm, and I didnt sleep very well :S
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Weekend was good, but junky. Had late night supper on Friday after LG, and junk food during the dinner with my JLP colleagues. It was great company, both nights! This coming weekend will be a good one too, coz it's Hope Conference at the Indoor Stadium! Only downside is, i won't get to see my girl for 2 whole days :( so this week, I will go back early every day to spend time with her!!
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bad hair day

2011-07-21T16:21:00.001+08:00

Was just chatting with Ivy, ex-colleague from Tiger. She said that I seem happier recently, through my FB updates. I do, actually. God has been faithful to my daily prayers. My job is getting more settled down, mainly. I was so stressed over my job for the past 1 plus month, trying to learn quickly and meet expectations. Seriously, it was such a tough experience, but I must say that I learnt so much from it. I learnt to forgive and forget, I learnt to let go of pride, my memory got better each day. Now, I react more positively to correction, with a smile. My colleagues are such dears too. Really thank God for these little blessings.
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i really regretted getting the LV champagne bag 5 years ago. I rarely use it, coz my things get so jumbled up in there and I can't see a thing when I try to hunt for stuff coz it's really dark in there. I have been using my Coach bag for nearly a year already, pretty satisfied with the bag actually, only downside is that it's not structured enough and things still get a bit messed up. It's really tough to find the perfect bag. I've found my perfect wallet though, which I have been using for the past 5 years.I really cannot find any reason to change the wallet! haha. Maybe i should just get THE bag and stop buying bags for the next 10 years or something.
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It's gonna be a busy night for hubby and myself. Right after work, I need to get to Sembawang to pick up some letters from my ex-neighbour and also go to to my girl's old enrichment centre to pick up a cheque. Then we are gg to a church member's house to pick up our foldable table and to say hi to their new baby girl. All these, to be done between 7pm-8pm latest. Then we are gg to catch Harry Potter at AMK Hub at 845pm. zzz.. dunno if we have time for dinner..Maybe we will have popcorn for dinner.
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Hubby has been so busy with his work. Actually me too, I am alot more busier than when I was at Tiger haha. Thinking back, God has been faithful to my marriage. The 2 of us have been together for the past 7 and a half years (including courtship period). Marriage - 5.5 years.

hmm, I think people celebrate their wedding anniversary right..and not 'pak-tor cum wedding' anniversary right? ahha.

:D

2011-07-18T16:01:00.001+08:00

Planning this saturday's JLP gathering at my place. Have decided to order Dominoes Pizza and KFC ;) Oh and not forgetting the NY cheesecake and macaroons from Bakerzinnnnnn! Total of 9 adults and 3 kids :) In fact, I have made the online orders for Bakerzin and Dominoes during lunch today! :) Shall order KFC this Thursday.
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Had a tiring weekend, thanks to the midnight Transformers movie we caught on Sunday morning. It was a great show, with all the wonderful transformations and action. My body was reverberating with all the sounds by the end of the movie lor, no kidding.
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Harry Potter up next this weekend! Hahaha. Hmm, maybe i shuld just catch an earlier show.. so I still get enough sleep. I was so grumpy the whole of yesterday coz I did not have enuff sleep :(
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Ha, I'm bringing my girl to watch Disney Live! in September at MBS. It's in 2 months time and tickets are already running out fast zzz. Going with Belle, Belle's 5-year-old son Lincoln, Ju, Ju's 5-year-old girl Emma. I can imagine the amount of fun the kids will have. It's like a mini class outing!

dim sum craving

2011-07-15T14:41:00.001+08:00

i made a discovery. Potatoes don't gimme pimples. Haha! Remember the large intake of baked potatoes and fries I had with Shiyun earlier this Tuesday? Yeah, no pimples till now! :D Now I know what I shuld take whenever I need an occasional carbo lift ;)
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Jus got back from lunch with Annie and Yanxi; had good and cheap dim sum at Golden Shoe food court. We ordered:
2 baskets of siew mai
2 baskets of har gau
1 basket of chicken feet
1 basket of pork ribs
1 basket of beancurd skin roll (deep fried)
1 plate of char siew chee cheong fun
1 basket of veg dumplings
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Total cost - $15.70. Ok right? Each basket was $1.80 - $2.00. Cheap and nice. Just that the har gau weren't too good. The rest was okay! Yanxi and I gave a treat to Annie, coz it's her last day today in our department. Come Monday, she will start in Tech department le. But still same firm lar hehe. Annie then gave us a bubble tea treat at Kawa :) I ordered Taro Milk Tea. I like it!
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Tummy not feeling too good now. Like, churning.. zzz.

mid-week

2011-07-13T17:36:00.001+08:00

Dinner last nite with Shiyun was great. Check out the pics at http://www.facebook.com/feilouship. Din know French food could be so damn filling! Both of us were bloated and heavy after the binging session. Well, we did not order that much leh. Just 2 appetisers, 2 main courses and 2 desserts. A lot meh? Hmm..
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I had WAY too much potato...all the fries and baked potato were so yummy ahhaa. I will have to eat yogurt for the rest of the month (except during my ex-company gathering next Sat at my place) , and go for more walks! Shiyun and i spent 1.5 hours eating and yakking away. We have not met for so many months, seriously. Last met was the steamboat buffet session with some other ex-JC friends, which was at least half a year ago..
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So fast, it's Wednesday already. haiz i haven been spending quality time with my girl lately. Recently, whenever I told her that I would be back late the next day, she would gimme a frown, like i have been behaving badly. Due to her early morning class, she has been going to bed at 930pm, so that reduces the time i have with her too. Time to PLAN!

shopping is evil

2011-07-12T17:45:00.001+08:00

Found a nice shop at J8 that sells affordable clothes. Purpur is the name and it's located on the 2nd floor next to Joop. It's actually quite hidden but I was glad I went in ahaha. Their dresses were all below $50 and with their 10% discount, I bought 2 dresses at $45 each and 1 top at $30 last night while waiting for my girl to finish her Phonics class. That's quite enuff for now..Will drop by again next month :) According to the friendly retail lady, they have new stock coming in every Monday.
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I realised smth.. When I am stressed at work, I got no mood to shop. Now that work is getting more settled, I buy so much stuff. Hmpf.
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Meeting Shiyun for dinner later at La Petite Cuisine @ Upper Thomson. French! When was the last time I had French food? I really cannot remember. French food has always sounded expensive to me (think Les Amis). Italian food, on the other hand, has cheaper options such as Al Dente. Should I have wine later? Hmm.
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Will be hosting a gathering with JLP ex-colleagues next Saturday. Wondering if I should order Yum Cha or KFC/ Pizza. I will be getting a NY Cheesecake and some macaroons from Bakerzin too. Best cheesecake I've tasted!

2011-07-07T11:22:00.001+08:00

durian last night was great as usual, but now I am still recovering from it...:S drinking hot green tea now, hopefully it will wash away the internal heat. I am praying hard for an easy day today!
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it's gonna be a busy 3 months ahead, with lotsa ECAs coming. Need to do a lot of researching, planning, organising, reviewing ;) I also have a couple of dinners coming right up. Going to Saffron Bistro (North Indian cuisine) with Tiger ex-colleagues tomorrow evening and going La Petite Cuisine (French) with Shiyun next Tuesday for some major catching up. And of course I will be taking pictures! Lots and lots of them! I am sure they are going to be pretty haha, coz North Indian and French food always look so cool!
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Ok i think all kinds of food look cool :)

2011-07-06T14:35:00.001+08:00

mid-week restlessness. can't wait for the day to end so i can go for my durian feast :S
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i realised that my clothes have become looser ever since i moved to my new place. The weekday morning brisk 10-min walks to take the bus are doing some good indeed. Also, we walk to Thomson Plaza at least once a week and that's quite a breath-taking experience too, because of the slope. ahhaa. Walking a lot, seriously. Coz my new place is really quite ulu lor.
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And I dun even have to use the gym. And I think I wun ever swim also, coz i dun go out of my door without make up.
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And now that i have lost some weight, i am starting to wear my old clothes. Hence, I dun feel like buying new clothes anymore. Like yesterday, I was at Thomson Plaza waiting for the rest of my family to walk over, I was walking around and I din even feel like gg into those shops to browse. In fact, I did not spend a cent at Thomson Plaza yesterday! My mum went to buy bread and papers, hubby went to rent DVD. hahahaha. Strange. I'm getting strange.
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2011-07-04T16:42:00.001+08:00

i realised, that i need 2 cups of coffee to keep myself awake thru out the day. 1 in the morning, and 1 during lunch. Seriously. My work accuracy and efficiency gets significantly better with the lunch coffee, which is so important coz it will be disastrous if i make any mistakes.
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I have finally started on my painting. Painted as much as I could over the weekend (maybe 4-5 hours in all) and I am not even 1/3 done yet lol. It's nice to paint, I focus on nothing but painting. Very serene. After the painting, it's like my day has been 'rebooted'.
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Monday is nearly over... so far okay, but kinda losing focus already.

cheer up

2011-06-28T19:20:00.001+08:00

saying that to myself. everyday with God ought to be cheerful! even if my days are filled with anger and frustration, its still ok, because what can anger and frustration do to me if i choose to think positively?
of course it takes lots of effort to stay positive. esp when i am used to doing things e way i like.
lots to learn from this experience. contentment, thankfulness esp. it has just been one and a half months. hang in there Wendy!

2011-06-24T16:19:00.001+08:00

it's friday :) happy!

well, happy that the weekend is here and my ex-colleagues are coming to my place tomorrow evening. But not happy with the fact that the curtain people got the curtains wrong for the 2nd time. They came earlier today to install the curtains for the 2nd time, and for the 2nd time, they got the design wrong i.e. they swopped the master bedroom curtain with the living room curtain. They took the curtain down again and brought it back, saying they will need to re-sew and re-do.
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i told hubby to call them to bring back those curtains and put them up again, coz i got visitors coming tomorrow. if they cannot make it, i will not pay. DO they have any idea how much inconvenience they have caused me? We have survived 2 weeks of massive sunlight shining thru our huge windows and now they want us to go thru the same thing for another 2 weeks?
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talking about home renovation, i haven managed to find any paintings for my home yet. Belle jus told me that there are pushcarts selling DIY paintings where the outline is already drawn up for you, you jus gotta apply the colours according to the instructions!! I am gg to get them tonight!

2011-06-23T15:41:00.001+08:00

I really have a problem sleeping more than 7 hours. I attempted to sleep at 1130pm. I was up 530am and 630am. Zzz. If I slept all the way past 7 hours, 100% i will get a headache. I dun understand! I am still tired and i wanna sleep, but i cannot! Hmpf.

But I do like my new bedroom with its breezy ceiling fan. The medium speed is just nice! Now I am waiting for my side table to arrive tomorrow. Then I will have a place for my laptop. Currently I have been using my laptop on my bed, which I dislike coz I cannot use the mouse. Not efficient at all. My bag is also on the floor. Modem also on the floor. Laptop bag also on the floor. All waiting for the side table.

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Oh the curtains are finally coming tomorrow as well! Hallelujah. No more sunshine on the butt!

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I have been reading the Bible via Youversion since Monday, and I am really hoping that I will continue to do it everyday until it becomes a habit. It's really beneficial to read the Bible cos it brings me so much wisdom and understanding on daily living. I read on the bus or on the train every morning on the way to work. I have a few reading plans to help me. Yesterday I read the Gospels and today I read the Old Testament. Somehow, a verse or two will always seem so relevant to me J
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Getting quite cross-eyed from looking at the PC for too long.

2011-06-21T17:04:00.001+08:00

my colleague celebrates her 21st birthday today. Now, what did I do during my 21st birthday?
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Oh, my folks held a birthday buffet at home, and I invited my poly friends and personal friends over. Still have those photos in fact. Quite lame actually. Never liked those bigger scale parties when I had to run around like a mad chicken trying to make everyone feel at home.
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So, hubby and I have decided not to hold a massive housewarming party for our new place. Instead, I will just get some closer friends over on a separate basis. So far, I am getting my life group folks, ex-Tiger department colleagues and ex-JLP colleagues. I will also be inviting a few ex-Tiger colleagues (from other depts) over as well, just for a gathering and major catching up session. The rest of my close friends all dunno one another.. 1's from JC, 4 mahjong kakis, 3 from poly. Hubby's friends have become my good friends too :D
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21 years old. that was 10 years ago for me.

dim summmm.

2011-06-17T16:34:00.001+08:00

i keep thinking about Victor's Kitchen.. :S I need to make a trip down SOOOON!
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Something I found online, nice ;)

Thank You for our Messy Home

Dear Lord,

Thank you for this sink of dirty dishes; we have plenty of food to eat.

Thank you for this pile of dirty, stinky laundry; we have plenty of nice clothes to wear.

And I would like to thank you, Lord, for those unmade beds; they were so warm and comfortable last night. I know that many have no bed.

My thanks to you, Lord, for this bathroom, complete with all the splattered mess, soggy, grimy towels and the dirty lavatory; they are all so convenient.

Thank you for this finger-smudged refrigerator that needs defrosting so badly; it has served us faithfully for many years. It is full of cold drinks and enough leftovers for two or three meals.

Thank you, Lord, for this oven that absolutely must be cleaned today; it has baked so many things over the years.

The whole family is grateful for that tall grass that needs mowing and lawn that needs raking; we all enjoy the yard.

Thank you, Lord, even for that slamming screen door. My kids are healthy and able to run and play. Many children cannot.

Lord, the presence of all these chores awaiting me says You have richly blessed my family. I shall do them cheerfully and I shall do them gratefully.

Even though I clutch my blanket and growl when the alarm rings... Thank you, Lord, that I can hear. There are many who are deaf.

Even though I keep my eyes closed against the morning light as long as possible...Thank you, Lord, that I can see. Many are blind.

Even though I huddle in my bed and put off rising...Thank you, Lord, that I have the strength to rise. There are many who are bedridden.

Even though the first hour of my day is hectic with socks that are lost, toast that is burned, tempers that are short, and my children that are so loud...Thank you, Lord, for my family. There are many who are lonely.

Even though our breakfast table never looks like the pictures in magazines and the menu is at times not balanced...Thank you, Lord, for the food we have. There are many who are hungry.

Even though the routine of my job is often monotonous...Thank you, Lord, for the opportunity to work. There are many who are jobless.

Even though I grumble and bemoan my fate from day to day and wish my circumstances were not so modest...Thank you, Lord, for life.

Author Unknown

Enuff!!

2011-06-17T10:49:00.001+08:00

i have had enuff of IKEA. have had enuff of spending. have had enuff of shopping!! My legs almost gave way after the IKEA spree last night. Was practically limping back to my place from the carpark. I am really glad it's Friday today!!
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Realised that my temper is on the short side lately. Hope things at home and at work will settle down soon and I can be a pleasant lady again. I will give myself until end of next week (that's where the school hols will end too). Once my girl starts her lessons in her new school, i can kick off my new timetable which includes GYM.
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In fact i am getting quite a bit of exercise everyday. I brisk walk 10 minutes to the bus stop every morning, can feel the muscles building up already. But I quite like it, coz i realise that the brisk walk actually regulates my bowel movements *oops* haahha. I have been going to the office toilet these few mornings :)
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Been back to eating lunches again this week. Jane has started her new job near me and we have been meeting for lunch. And yes, I have been eating carbs for lunch. Not many choices u know. zzz. Raffles place is a crazy place. I'll be grateful if i can get a seat fast. Well, craziness aside, i will have to start on gym soon. 3 X 30min per week at least!

2011-06-15T18:00:00.001+08:00

my hair is getting messy. long, discoloured and frizzy. really dunno what to do with it.. zzz. seriously, i tink so much about my hair but in the end, i will jus end up doing the same thing. =.= really feel like snipping it to the shoulders! Then no need to comb until so chum!
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But i do like the fact that I can tie braids now. :S
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Life is short, in light of eternity. I am already past 30 and I think I still lack alot of maturity in many areas. I am a self-centred person. I blame others for the circumstances I am in. I offend other people easily. I am proud. Sigh. I know many things about myself. But the difficult part is changing and reacting/ responding correctly when tough situations come to prick me. When things are going well, I can feel quite saintly. When bad things happen, I start to rant, complain and blame others.
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It doesn't really matter, really. If things at home are stressing me out, it's just for that period of time and it will be over. If things at work are not looking good, it will be over soon too. My attitude should not change because of circumstances. Amidst all the change, my attitude needs to remain constant, because my God is constant in His love and providence for me. He does not love me lesser if I get corrected by my manager. He does not love me lesser when I feel stupid or discouraged.
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I shall persevere in being faithful and diligent in what God has given me.
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List

2011-06-13T13:03:00.000+08:00

not used to the new place haha. i told belle, i feel like living on a mountain. not used to the height & not used to the inconvenience. Our first night there, we already ordered Pastamania delivery. lol. Ok la, we were too tired to drive out to find food.
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stuff to get at Ikea:
1) White short stools x 5
2) White stools x 5
3) Bedroom slippers
4) Door stoppers
5) Side Table (in cream colour)
6) Cushions for sofa (in cream colour) x 3
7) Rug (living room)
8) BIG clock (living room)
9) BIG picture frames (with pictures)
10) Chair 'smoothers'.. haha. those stuff u put under the chair legs to prevent scratching the floor

other stuff to get elsewhere:
1) Bean bags
2) Glass wiper
3) Machine oil (need to smooth those wardrobe drawers)

Posting in e train

2011-06-10T18:38:00.001+08:00

Dun think i will have time to blog over e weekend. Gonna be e busiest weekend of my life! And the busy-Ness will start tonight. =-O
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Quite interested in e singing class that my colleague is currently attending. Lessons once a week and showcase once every 3 months. But i guess now is not the right time. Let me get settled down at work first. Let me get comfortable with the work first. Let me get the certainty that i am staying there for good first! Not that i am thinking of leaving. But people may not want me :-\
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In this job for a month now. Yet I still do not dare bring too many things to decorate my work station. I dun feel that settled yet. Sigh. I will give this phase 2months.
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I need to feel that certainty within 2months.

:(

2011-06-09T13:42:00.000+08:00

Sighh.. the only word i can use to describe myself now is... TRAPPED.
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I feel like i am being twirled around like i'm some kind of a joke. unwanted, thrown around, bullied.
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of coz, i am over-dramatising. Just feeling quite chum at the moment.

In bed

2011-06-09T00:01:00.001+08:00

Posting from my phone. I had another busy day at work, so tired now. but thank God i have great colleagues who will explain stuff to me and i have a very patient manager.
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Still, i feel very stressed at work. I really hope to get past this phase soon. :-\
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2011-06-03T16:36:00.001+08:00

i haven been so drained for a long long time. it has been such a ...:::d r a i n i n g::... week.
I had quite a busy day at work yesterday. Plus, my left foot hurt whenever i try to walk briskly, has been like that for a week. So, yesterday my foot hurt extra badly after a rushed farewell lunch with a colleague from another department. Then, ten minutes before knock off, there was work to do. I ended up leaving at 620pm and ended up brisk walking to the MRT. Ouch.
Finally arrived at Swee Choon after a confusing but interesting walk through the small roads near Mustafa. Jonathan Lee is indeed super familiar with that place! When we reached Swee Choon, we were so grateful for the air con with a ceiling fan!! Feilouship at Swee Choon was fabulous. 8 of us there. Everybody knew me, but they dunno one another. But it was still great! We all were laughing and chatting non-stop. It was unbelieveable. We had great fun eating, talking at the top of our voices (coz it was a big round table) and laughing away at all kinds of jokes. After dinner, most of us went to Carl's place (a nearby condo) for a walk. Coz Claudia was interested to see its facilities ahhaha. We left at about 10pm and me, being the only one who stays in the far north, took the train home.
My poor feet! I walked to farrer park mrt, took a train to serangoon. Alighted and WALKED to take the Circle line train. Alighted at Bishan and WALKED to take the NorthSouth Line train. :``(( by the time i got home..i jus plopped onto my sofa and stared into space.
Thankfully my feet are feeling much better now. I was expecting my feet to get worse today actually, but they got better. Must be my prayer this morning :)
Lunching at Raffles Place is such a nightmare. The rushed farewell lunch was really rushed okay. We went to Raffles Xchange and it was CRAZY. And, there are so many nice shops... temptations at every step. staying in for lunch is a better idea.
Hungry.

beezee

2011-06-01T13:47:00.000+08:00

jus sort of realised that we are moving to our new place next week. dragged myself to pack the 2nd half of my study room last night. pretty good, 2 small boxes i did!
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it has been 2 weeks exactly, and it's going well. getting the hang of it and slowly picking up speed. Train rides are pretty okay, just 1 more week and my train rides will be much shorter :) looking forward to it!

i need to post my food review REAL SOON..

2011-05-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

getting way overdue. argh. but i simply don't have the energy to do it..hmm, maybe that's exaggerating. I just dun wanna stare at the screen for too long. I stare at my screen at work all day long, literally. non-stop! even now, i am seeing double vision :(
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Guess I will get used to it. Starting my engine after 1 year's absolute slack is indeed no joke. I think it's more ME than anything else. I mean, I giving myself the pressure to learn quickly and get up to speed. I jus feel that I need to work harder! Good also la, having a spirit of excellence is biblical!
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Been staying in for lunch for past 2 days, tomorrow as well. Gonna over-eat again this Thursday at Sharon's wedding. then next week, maybe we are gg to Swee Choon for dim sum. WOohoo.

fwyday!

2011-05-20T17:06:00.001+08:00

it's friday, and i am super glad. realised that i have not been updating my blog since last weeeek! haha. been busy la, out of the house many times. just over the past 2 days, i was eating bigtime.
Wed Lunch - Welcome Lunch with Manager mentor (Ra-men with spring roll and shishamo)
Wed Dinner - Feilouship Dinner at Kiseki (had.. everything?)
Thur Lunch - Department Lunch (Saba Set Lunch with rice :S at Shin Kushiya)
Thur Dinner - 10-course dinner at some temple, that lasted from 9pm till 11pm, with Orh Nee as dessert...SINFUL.

So, I had yogurt for breakfast and lunch today. Also had 1 sachet of 3-in-1 Ovaltine and 1 sachet of 3-in-1 coffee to keep me warm and awake in the office. It is very cold in here!!

Back to food. I will be on a yogurt diet for a long time man, coz I need to save 'space' for this Sunday and next Thursday's wedding dinners. ARGH.

Rice gives me pimples

2011-05-11T07:49:00.001+08:00

Confirmed, chopped, guaranteed.
I had the irresistible porridge at crystal jade yesterday, and PRING, i discovered a pimple coming up on my cheek this morning.
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Rice makes me fat and ugly, in summary. Hee.
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On e way to work now, on a pretty empty bus. Will be saying bye to bus rides and saying hi to train rides soon. Time to load my phone with sermons so i Can listen to them instead of grumbling at e crowded train.

watching GE gave me a pimple

2011-05-09T16:56:00.000+08:00

coz i stayed up till 3am. =.= and that made me so zombified during service the next morning.
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The GE hype is officially over and I am frankly getting weary of all the endless comments posted on FB. Weibo seems more interesting to me now, especially with Stefanie Sun's wedding news and pics :)
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May is gonna be quite a month for me. 2 weddings and 1 birthday party to attend. I am emcee to 1 wedding. Will be busy with packing and more packing. 1 Feilouship session next Wednesday and hope to plan more sessions, maybe every 2 weeks. Starting work at new place next week. Quite a lot going on!
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Faithful with little, faithful with much. I'll be faithful with my current roles for now :)

unbelieveable.

2011-05-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

politics really can show one's true self. I cannot believe that many of my FB friends have such extreme views on local politics. Singapore is my country, and I love my country for its safety, its cleanliness, its booming economy, its respectable standard of living. Singapore should stay the way it is, and progress to greater heights!
Sadly, I saw one Youtube user's comments on 1 MP Teo Ser Luck. Here it goes:
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Lawrence sent me this video today. Told me it is the PAP fucker Teo Ser Luck.
I didn't know the cheebyekia speaking power is so lousy one.
Why he even shout his own name at the end? Fucking laokui right?
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Isn't this defamation???
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The hard truth is, the world is never fair. You want to make everyone equal? This thinking equals idealism. It's impossible to achieve absolute equality. Singapore is not too bad, in terms of equality. You don't see beggars or orphans roaming the streets. Maybe over 90% of the population have a roof over their head, from the way I see it. There will definitely be poor people, there will definitely be hungry people. It is impossible to eliminate them! People who promise to eliminate inequality, are simply just building sandcastles in the air.
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From the comments I see on FB, it's the non-PAP supporters who have been cursing and swearing non-stop. On the other hand, PAP supporters have been very gracious by choosing not to retaliate.
****i can imagine non-PAP supporters hurling comments at me 'Of coz PAP supporters have nothing to say, coz they know they are wrong!!!'****
Now, people, the truth u know, the news you see, IS IT REALLY THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH? Is it really written/ published with a pure heart without any motives? Also, do you really really really know how the political scene works? Do you really really know the reasons for all the policies/ decisions made? Or do you just assume and accuse?
Truth is, You Don't Know. Dun argue with me on this, unless you are a politician or a candidate yourself.
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I do wish that people can see what has been done, instead of what has not been done. Singapore has progressed from a fishing kampong to what it is now. We walk around on the streets in the middle of the night without fearing being raped or robbed. We treat different races with friendliness. No one carries a gun around shooting school children. All these that we are enjoying, are the results of the policies/ legislation that the current government has made.
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But i see my friends accusing Ministers, calling them pricks, calling them nasty names. I thought only secondary school ah bengs will be able to say such things. To think that my friends, professional working adults with a right-thinking mind, are spouting such immature name-calling activities. I am not trying to act all high and mighty. To me, name-calling simply means disrespect, no manners. Anyone who doesn't respect others, doesn't deserve to be respected. If you dun deserve to be respected, you do not deserve any credibility too. And you want me to support the people you support when you dun deserved to be respected? Enough said.
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Opposition parties' candidates are people with a heart to serve the nation. They should have an opportunity to voice out in Parliament, and I support more of such new faces in Parliament fighting for our rights and to provide a check and balance. I just do not agree that they should become the ruling government, simply because they are not qualified to do so. They got no experience, hence no expertise. Simply speaking, I cannot entrust my country to someone whom I dun trust. Sure, opposition candidates consist of very professional people who can inspire people, who can speak well.
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But can they lead a NATION? Can they manage a NATION? ---> We don't know. I mean, i know of lawyers who can talk damn well, but can't organise even their desk!
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I am simply very disturbed by the bimbotic/ himbotic way that adult Singaporeans are reacting to this GE, whining, cursing, complaining until no end. If you are unhappy, go join the party officially and do something about it. If not, just shut up.

Whining Wendy

2011-05-02T15:31:00.001+08:00

When i am perspiring, hot and sticky, dun come near me.
When i am hungry or i did not manage to eat what i wanna eat, dun come near me also.
The weather has been perpetually idiotic. Whether sunny or rainy, e humidity is horrendous. These 3 days spent at home had taken a toll on me and i am feeling rather irritated now.
Sigh. And i have been spent on quite a few things.
Concealer 12bucks
Eyebrow pencil 7bucks
Mineral compact foundation 23bucks
Elseve hair serum 12bucks
Daiso snacks 10bucks
3 Story books for my girl 10bucks
Dinner at coffee club 50bucks
Heels 77bucks
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It all adds up! Zzz. Ok no more spending allowed for e whole of May.

i failed trying to stay faithful

2011-05-02T11:54:00.000+08:00

Thanks to http://awesumlootz.onsugar.com/. This is wat i bought eventually. I heard Claire sharing with me how great Maybelline's Mineral Powder was, so I decided to give it a try. Been putting this on my face for the past 2 days, and everything has been cool. No breakouts and it goes better with my MAC concealer, although not as perfectly as the Body Shop foundation :S but the good thing is, it doesnt make my face greasy! The oil control is pretty good :)

I got this yesterday at watson's. was thinking, instead of trying to buy foundation to suit my MAC concealer, why dun i buy a new concealer! Yeah so i got this. Haven tried it yet. Maybe tonight :)

can u believe it, i lost my eyebrow pencil from Make Up Forever!! I bought it 2 years ago and I'm still using it happily. Somehow, it went missing 2 days ago at home and i cannot find it :S So I bought this at $6.90. super cheap compared to my Make Up Forever's $28 pencil. Will update on how it is!

i shall remain faithful

2011-04-28T17:28:00.000+08:00

to my Body Shop foundation. hope the weather tonight will be NON-rainy, so i can go and get my refill.
Oh and I am loving my VS scent!

still emo, sigh.

2011-04-27T15:06:00.001+08:00

everytime i think about my leaving, i will start to feel very upset. the same thoughts will run over my head, which is starting to irritate me.

'All because of her, I cannot take leave for my moving house in June!'

'All because of her, I cannot take leave for Sharon's wedding next month!'

'All because of her, I cannot take leave to go HK for Fung's concert in July!'

'All because of her, I cannot even wait for the possible bonus a couple of months later!'

'All because of her, I cannot even consider having a 2nd child in the next 1 year!'

'My HR is powerless! Can't do shit! Zero welfare!'

I hate the thought of my life being ordered around by some stranger who is incapable, incompetent, rude and disrespectful. My plans are ruined. I am going to miss all my colleagues here so much. I have been feeling gloomy since Monday. Sad, upset and helpless.

ARGH. And it's all HER FAULT.

累

2011-04-25T16:50:00.000+08:00

it has been a hectic day. Actually, compared to last time at my previous workplace, it's actually not hectic at all. I think I've gotten used to the relaxed workload over here and I've become a nua-ster haha. Well, It's good that I am leaving anyway, I want to start off on a clean slate with the right working attitude, a spirit of excellence and a teamwork mentality! I want to get back that fighting chiong-ster spirit, like the good old Singtel Wendy!
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Just feeling a bit upset still, at the fact that I am leaving unwillingly. :( Hope my emo-ness will be over soon. I am sad at leaving my lovely colleagues, mainly. They are such wonderful ladies. I am sad at leaving even the colleagues from other departments whom I work with... Flight Ops, Finance, IT... All are nice people!
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New job will start at 9am, and it's in CBD area. Good thing is, I will be able to wake up 45min later!! In fact, I will be able to wake up with hubby, go off with hubby, and even have breakfast together if we wake up early enough! He can drive me to the MRT station also wahaha. But of course I will end later, at 6pm, and I don't expect to leave on time also. maybe 630pm. So I will get home at 730pm, which is later. I will have a quick dinner, spend an hour with my darling before she goes to bed at 9pm. Then maybe I still got time to go gym downstairs!!! Woot. Ha, i can pull hubby along with me too. xD
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Just had 3-in-1 milk tea. Dunno why, i will start burping everytime after i drink milk tea. =.=

i must blog

2011-04-19T14:11:00.000+08:00

cos i haven been doing that for ages! been so busy leh :S
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anyway, wanna share a verse from my QT just now..
Acts 20:28 "Keep watch over yourselves and all the flock of which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers. Be shepherds of the church of God which he bought with his own blood."

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The verse reminds me to be faithful. Faithful with little, faithful with much.
Priorities, priorities. I have too many. Need to simplify.
Tired, exhausted. Time to energize too.
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tough on the outside, soft on the inside

2011-04-16T10:39:00.000+08:00

wonderful durian supper we had a few days ago. got to know new friends too :)

it's the weekend again, and i am glad. Been so tired coordinating the Good Friday event thru out this week! Gonna catch up on my sleep today and tomorrow. I will usually nap with my girl in the afternoons heehee.

Going to bring my girl to her class soon, then it's the usual lunch date with hubby :)

Come Monday, I will be doing something which I dislike doing. haiz.

2011-04-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

‎1 Tim 6:6-7 "But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it." ~
How true this is. No matter how much we try to achieve in life, it will just be temporary. To some people, their life of 70 years is not exactly temporary, so they want to shine above the rest in terms of career, wealth and looks. Of course it isn't wrong to do our best, but it will be rather wasteful to work like 12 hours a day!
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I am still learning from this too. learning to see the eternal perspective.

learning to trust God

2011-04-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

becos i realised that i am not very good at it :) especially when things start to act up.. i am never good at handling last minute changes or sudden uncertainties. currently facing a bad situation, and i have no idea how to get out of it. or rather, i am not sure if i can get out of it. things seem quite bleak at the moment and i am really feeling quite helpless about it. A phrase came into my head like now..
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Be still, and know that I am God.
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i am also never good at keeping still. argh. but now that i am helpless, i guess i dun have much choice but to wait for God's deliverance :)
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Just went BSF tonight. Starting to enjoy it again, and i am sure i will be sad to move over to the Bishan session when i move. I dun even know if there is space for me at Bishan!

Happy April Fool's Day :)

2011-04-01T09:44:00.000+08:00

Just another day :) in more of a meditative mood today, as I am fasting breakfast and praying for Prayer Night later this evening. Praying that HS will touch lives today!
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It's April already, time seems to be passing by quickly. Good or bad? Ha. We don't have control over such things, hence we just gotta make the best out of it i guess!
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Hubby's going to the Get IT Expo later this afternoon to check out LED TV and laptops. Yes I will be getting a new laptop! byebye, slow Asus Eee Netbook :P As I no longer bring my laptop out of the house, i do not need portability. I want a bigger screen and and SPEEEEDY performance! Heehee.

program for today

2011-03-29T12:23:00.000+08:00

Not much of a program la haha. I got dental appointment at 330pm, not looking forward to it at all. But I can claim $150 from my company, so why not. I haven been to the dentist for YEARS, because my previous visits all SUCKED :S It's such a dilemma!!
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I have a damn shallow throat, so i gag easily. argh. BUT, since it's FREE, and i SHOULD go anyway, sigh..i shall just cross the damn road and get it done and over with.
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And I got BSF tonight!

林峰认真，调皮，看灰机的时候。。

2011-03-24T12:06:00.000+08:00

continuing

2011-03-21T17:28:00.000+08:00

as i was saying, i am a victim of such meaningless pursuits. I have a roof over my head, i have enough money to get by comfortably, i have a family whom i love. I am very very blessed by God who is the Giver of all things. I came to this world naked, hence whatever i have now, are not mine, but God's.
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sigh i've been so busy at work today (yes, even during lunchtime), that I didn't manage to write much haha. and now, it's time to go home!

disturbed nap

2011-03-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

sigh, couldnt sleep, too many tots running thru my head. but eventually i willed myself to sleep. at least an hour of proper kooning was fulfiled.
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going for jon and crystal's wedding tonight at raffles hotel. my first time there and i got no idea how to get to the grand ballroom. walk up i suppose. lol. hubby is kind enuff to be my chauffeur, to and fro. gonna switch my friendly mode ON. haha.
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starting to realise that life is pretty meaningless, chasing after the unimportant things in life. life is short and temporal. so what if i buy new clothes? so what if i get another pair of nice shoes? so what if i get another new job with a greater package? it's just for that temporary sense of satisfaction and achievement. and then? the cycle continues. i am a victim of such endless pursuits. it's just too easy to slip into the routine that everyone else is doing.
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to be continued. time to go..

2011-03-15T16:32:00.001+08:00

i keep yawning. but once night time comes, i wun feel like sleeping early. feel like reading/ watching tv or do something other than sleep. haiz. last night i was rushing to finish my BSF homework. once done, i KO-ed almost immediately. super tired for no reason..
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Going to BSF tonight. Time for some spiritual nourishment.

2011-03-14T16:34:00.001+08:00

I finally squeezed out some time to collect Fung's mandarin album yesterday after church service. 10% discount, thanks to my cousin's wife who works at Popular :D Fung's 2 new upbeat songs are fantastic billboard material, well done!
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This week is gonna be a short week as i will be on leave this Thursday and Friday. Wanna use up my childcare leave before end of March anyway. Taking this time to rest from work and spend time with my girl too. I guess thats the good thing about this job. Lots of flexibility and i can take leave whenever I like. I won't say that this company is family-oriented.. it's just that the work I do don't require utmost urgency, no deadlines...so no one will get killed if my work is being delayed. haha.
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Spent the weekend rethinking about my life and the direction that I would like to take. Earlier on, I sent in my application to MOE. I've been wanting to get into MOE since 10 years ago. But last week I heard rumours that maybe my chances will be killed, coz I'm not from a local university, so I think teaching is out. Major boohoo.
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And no one is gonna hire me as a private teacher coz I do not have any teaching qualifications. :\
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Not that I am in a mad hurry to start smth new.

Giving thanks for BSF

2011-03-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

After every BSF, i will always think to myself - I'm glad I went. Yesterday was a bad day at work. I was tired, grumpy and giddy from the crazy bus ride. I managed to reach at 650pm, so I rushed to the foodcourt for my dinner. I had 小碗汤, which is my favourite!! SO far the best I've ever tasted! After that hot pot of soup with the yummy porky stuff inside, I was 100% better! Er, you do know that 小碗汤 means 小碗面 without the 面 right?? LOL.
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At BSF, we would start with singing 2 praise hymns. I have learnt to appreciate hymns, because they comprise plainly of piano music and our voices, hence its simple, straight to the point. I don't have to bother about the drummist getting off beat, or the support singers going off key. I just focus on praising God!
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We will then proceed to our discussion group, where we share our answers from the homework done through the past week. This is quite fun as we hear different answers from everyone. There are no wrong answers, because we share from different viewpoints :)
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The last part is the lecture, where our Teaching Leader will speak to us for about 45min. This has to be my favourite part, because the 3 principles we learn every week are so so relevant to me, for some reason hahaha. Only thing is, I do not know anyone there, so I'm alone most of the time. BSF has a very structured program, so we don't have time to mingle around and get to know people too. I guess that's good in a way, coz I really don't mind being alone :) Good time to just spend time thinking, reflecting, praying.
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I'm going Kallang Leisure Park tonight to meet Claudia and Jeff for dinner and discussion. Think it's my first time there.. haha.

fruitful trip to the airport xD

2011-03-03T15:52:00.000+08:00

this is my favourite pic. very proper and perfect! :D

2nd favourite. wahaha.

This would be my fav, but it's abit too blur.. :(

This is nice too yah :)

In case you are wondering if I fainted from excitement by sitting with him, the answer is no. In fact, the whole of the 2 minutes while sitting with him and waiting for the rest to get their positions right, I was just quietly enjoying the moment of sitting with a celebrity whom I really admire. It also did not occur to me to converse with him too.. *scratches my head and wonder why* Maybe to me, I don't wanna bother or disturb him too much? Just being considerate mah heehee. Besides, I don't think I have the courage yet wahaha. Can sit with him and take pic, good enuff le!

I also wasn't feeling uncontrollably thrilled when sitting with him either. Just one word - contented! It's not as if I have a crush on him lor wahahaha! He's someone I really really respect and admire, period.

coz i have been wanting to take indivual picture with him since i joined FF in 2009!! This is not really considered as individual picture lar, but I'm glad enough.

Contentment is bliss. I wish I can say the same for other aspects of my life. =.=

Tired tired n tired

2011-03-01T23:40:00.001+08:00

I m 31 years old this calendar year.
Pause.
I m still undecided.
Pause.
Why am I so discontented?
Why am I so troubled and troublesome?
Why do I behave like this?
Pause.

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post from new phone!

2011-02-27T19:44:00.001+08:00

Nice interface, heh. Trying to get used to the keypad.
Tired. Too much hype over the weekend i guess. But it was fruitful :)

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Fung in SG

2011-02-25T10:35:00.000+08:00

Taken yesterday at airport. Happened to be during lunch time, so I could go! Everything lasted prob less than 5 minutes, but i was happy. That i was there just to say hi and pass him a card and a few packets of lozenges. :)

I shall

2011-02-21T00:41:00.001+08:00

Just finished my BSF homework. There is this statement in the notes that struck me: WHAT YOU BELIEVE DETERMINES HOW YOU BEHAVE.
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I know of someone who sincerely believes that she will one day become Lam Fung's girlfriend. She will clamber after every chance to be on stage with him, to the point of extreme desperation.
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So I wonder, what do I believe in? It seems like I've been doing quite a lot of floating around. I sometimes read the bible, I sometimes prefer to watch Hk drama. I sometimes feel very close to God, I sometimes prefer to just be alone and do what I feel like doing. I sometimes pray a lot, but at times I just feel so tired. I sometimes have a surge of compassion on people who dunno God, but at times I choose to believe that other people will reach out to them and it doesn't have to be me.
I sometimes post bible verses on fb, yet at times I feel angry with people who don't behave the way I feel they should.
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It's really time to sit down, and think about what I really believe in. What I really wanna do.
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Actually, I do know what i believe in. But I just keep floating around, refusing to start being disciplined and be committed about my beliefs. And that feels horrible cos I jus seem to go with the flow and allow the tide to bring me wherever! I shan't let that happen to me anymore. I shall take captive every thought, every word, every action! And start leading my life the right way.
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That will mean I'll need to eliminate the unnecessary habits/ activities in my life. And start being disciplined with the correct ones! Time to get down to SERIOUS WORK.

finally started my BSF!

2011-02-16T00:12:00.000+08:00

What a relief! I've been so ill-disciplined for the past few months! When the class started jus now and we all praised God together with the hymns, i felt like tearing. The points in the lecture spoke to me too. I am in a new discussion group, with many young ladies like me wahaha. New discussion leader too, nice. And....
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Half my group are TEACHERS. Is God telling me something? :)
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I have decided, to go back to PAPER. Paper sermon notebook. Paper BSF notes. Paper diary. No more total dependence on iPhone. Enough of convenient apps!
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Coz it's gonna be very very inconvenient if that iPhone of yours fail to sync with the PC. Like mine!!!!
I may switch to BB/ Galaxy instead. I am happy with calling, sms, ebuddy and whatsapp. The rest shall be on the good old paper tools.

What is my passion?

2011-02-14T19:11:00.001+08:00

I have been asking myself this question last week. And I wondered why I find it so difficult to answer. Or rather, i couldnt find an answer. It was another one of those days where I suddenly lost focus in life.
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And I'm still feeling quite lousy today. Had a brief chat with belle over whatsapp and felt much better though.
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At the hair salon now to redo my hair colour. They din do it properly last sat. Sigh.